Day Two:

Scripture:
  The Lord is my rock, my fortress, my deliverer, my God, my stronghold in whom I take refuge, my shield, the glory of my salvation, and my high tower.
                                   ~Psalm 18:2

Quote:
  Sometimes the best thing that you can do is not think, not wonder, not imagine, not obsess, just breathe and have faith that everything will work out for the best.


Song:
 Bruises by Train


  This time one year ago, I spent most of my time studying, planning, nursing, and simply staying busy. Looking back now, I still wouldn't say I saw the leaving coming. Whether that was because I was too busy, he was on the rigs, the lack of sleep from having a new baby who NEVER slept, or just not being aware of what was expected for both of us, I did't see it coming. I think back to all the time we were together and how many worlds apart we must have been. We were different, we had different opinions, styles, beliefs, habits, and everything else. I had convinced myself that opposites attract. Right?! Well, sometimes they do and I truly see now that loving someone includes loving and respecting the differences you have between one another. This being said, having too many differences could be harmful on a relationship. I love to write and read, sing and dance, go out and be social, spend time together. He was different (not in a bad way, but just different from me). He liked being home on his weeks off. He liked spending a lot of time with his family (I do too, however, my family wasn't the picture perfect functional family... we put the fun in disfunctional), he liked having quiet moments alone, and we stopped going to bed together. We simply just enjoyed different things. We started to drift apart and I started to feel unwanted, unneeded, and unnoticed.

   Over the past year, I learned that it's ok to like different things. It's ok to have my own opinion. It's ok to be ..... picky....  Like I said yesterday, I learned to laugh. WOW, what an amazing feeling. To laugh, like me, loud, uncontrolled! I learned how to indulge in too many sappy movies, love quotes, and songs. I "Shot" my way through this Horrible Tragedy. I see now, I love being me. He needed to love him and love what he was doing, as did I. We both deserved to be happy. We both needed to enjoy the things we love. We both deserved the opportunity to move on and find someone who was "Less different."

  If I could offer a little advice, I would say this:
1. Make sure you laugh. Laugh alone, laugh together, laugh hard and really feel it.
2. Smile when you notice someone is different. Enjoy their differences, respect their differences, and maybe even try something different yourself.
3. Find more time for yourself in your relationships. Loving yourself can really improve the love relationship you have towards someone else.

 From my thoughts to yours, enjoy the little things.... Until tomorrow. Ciao :)